Yes, this was planned. No, we are not crazy! Jim and I have always known that we wanted children. From the very beginning we dreamed of having a family of our own, and maybe a big one at that. However, we did not know that achieving said dream would prove to be more of a challenge for us than most.
Despite suffering several losses, enduring painful injections (me), and receiving life-changing news that our first would be born with special needs- we have decided that we still want more children. To say the least, it has been a scary decision, but we have put much thought into it and we know in our hearts that it’s the right one for us. After all, our first child, Jameson, adds so much joy to our lives, we could not love him more. AND he is going to make an awesome big brother!
So, lo and behold this past fall, I found myself staring at a positive hpt (home pregnancy test)! I was petrified, this was happening. I knew that I had to pull strength from anywhere I could get it and be brave. This is what we prayed for.
Four and a half months of hard baby incubation work later, we got to see how our little one was doing. A day that we were extremely panicked about, the dreaded mid-pregnancy ultrasound. Having been through so much has really put things into a different perspective for us. Pregnancy is Scary! Joys that other couples share while pregnant are terrifying to us. Normally this ultrasound should have been something to look forward to. Nope. But, we knew what we signed up for. Because we had no real answer for why Jameson’s limb deficiency occurred, many frightening thoughts ran through our minds. As the tech placed the wand on my belly I cried, a second later a little hand waved at us and she said ” I can tell you right now that I see full arms and legs”! And…